I have been walking around for days now....
....with butterflies fluttering around in my stomach!!!
I wake up, and there they are.
As I make lunch, I can feel them.
Through out the day, through all the mundane rituals of my day....those little guys are just a fluttering.
Why???
I am so darn excited and extremely nervous about our upcoming trip to China to bring home Avery.
(We are leaving a week from tomorrow!!!!)
Excitement:
another child!!!!! yeah!
meeting her
playing with her
getting to know her
holding her....(deep sigh!!!)
bringing her home....finally!
loving her, completely!!!!
Nervousness:
I have done this one time before, I am by no means an expert....but, boy oh boy, did Shea grieve!!! She grieved for months....
Avery is almost four years old....my gosh, she is gonna be scared....to say the least!
She is not going to know what just hit her....how her life is going to change....so drastically!
We don't speak her language....this is huge!!!
She might just totally withdraw....
She might be very angry and aggressive....
She might be very, very sad.....
Oh my poor baby....
I do know that through this all and in the months to come, my Lord and Savior will be with us all!!
He will sustain us,
strengthen us,
hold us,
lead us,
enlighten us....
He will provide all we need!!!
Please lift us up in prayers....I know you will....cuz, you are all just amazing people! And I do thank the Lord for you!!!
Yeah, one more thing....
I have one jealous little five year old here ( I won't name names or anything....ha-ha)....
Could you pray for her, too?????
Wow - I could've written that post. I feel exactly the same way ('cept maybe the adopting before part). All the excitement, the nervousness, and His peace rolled up together. How people do this without looking to Him, I don't really know!
ReplyDeleteI'll definitely be praying for you!
Can't wait to meet you and Avery!
OH MY! One does not forget the UTTER ANXIETY prior to each adoption journey! The excitment yet the fear! OY! I will happily pray for you as you go through this new family adventure. God's got your back at EVERY turn!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful post...it will all work out. I remember that feeling all too well, and then it worked out to be much better than I had anticipated. Prayers for you all.
ReplyDeleteLeighAnna had a short time of not being "herself" after Lydia came home. There will be the honeymoon, the not-so-honeymoon and then everyone will settle into a new normal. We'll be praying that second phase goes by quickly. ;-)
ReplyDeleteOH JOY! I am so excited for you! I know it is scary, but you have all the tools for success! Embrace those first few months and remember everything.... it all changes so quickly.
ReplyDeleteHugs to you~
I can't believe y'all are leaving in a WEEK! So scary, so exciting, so... life-changing. Can't wait to follow along.
ReplyDeleteI will pray for you and Avery, and of course, for Shea. Prayers for your family as you take this awesome journey for a second time.
ReplyDeleteOnly a week? I am having butterflies for you! I will be praying for you, Avery, and Shea. May God bless you with his amazing peace and mercy.
ReplyDeleteButterflies are so good!:) Praying for a wonderful journey and a great bonding time with Avery. Praying for Shea too. God has you in the palm of His hand!
ReplyDeleteI wish you the best and will be praying for a smooth transition. We are right behind you on travel and will be checking your happenings!
ReplyDeleteSo happy for you, praying for you all have a blessed journey. Can't wait to see all the pictures!!! :)
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