"No one loved Zu La...." (click here for part 1)
This statement still takes my breath away...even now as I type it....tears are threatening to fall....
She whispered this....
I almost missed it....
Faith, my oldest daughter looked at me and said, "Did you hear that, Mom?"
We were instantly struck with the reality and the heartbreak of what Avery said.
She is only four years old! No four year old child should ever have to feel that she was not loved!
No child *period* should ever feel this!!!!
Reality one:
Without revealing too much of her history, she was not an infant when she was relinquished. She had lived with her first family for a while....
This is her first sense of loss. How does one recover from this??
Reality two:
She had lived in a very progressive, well-managed orphanage.
She was bathed every morning.
Her teeth were brushed daily.
She knew how to color, cut, glue....
She had music and dance opportunities at her orphanage.
She was a part of many activities to enhance her social skills.
She had friends and companionship.
She was well-cared for....
But!
She wasn't loved. Her words, not mine!
She is only four!
She knows the difference!
This is heartbreaking!
As an adult, I am having a hard time wrapping my head around this....
Did she ever feel special? Unique? Appreciated? Cherished?
Oh my sweet Avery....
You were loved!!! You were treasured!!
"Before I formed you in the womb I
knew you, before you were born I set you apart..."
Jeremiah 1:5
"I have loved you with an everlasting love...."
Jeremiah 31:3
"See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands...."
Isaiah 49:16
"From birth I was cast upon you; from my mother's womb you have been my God."
Psalm 22: 10
"Your hands made me and formed me..."
Psalm 119:73
I am so crazy in love with this child!
She has a quite strength about her...
She is very compassionate and ultra sensitive...
Oh, how she loves to laugh!
She is constantly singing, humming,
and dancing through out the house.
She has a sparkle in her eye....
She has a tender heart....
She loves Jesus!
Avery ~ you are God's little princess!
Avery ~ you are His creation!
AVERY ~
He will never forsake you or leave you!!!
Neither will I...... my precious one, neither will I!
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